Very bad for a first timer.

Tonight i did something that i have never done in my life. i felt so nervous while doing it. mixed feeling of fear, anxiety, uneasiness. i was very uncomfortable. imagine doing something you don't do on a regular basis. like rock climbing in the himalayas or go skinny dipping @ d red sea. i went nuts.

i will not go into much details but the ending? so sad..i did very bad; lousy performance..for a first timer.

guess i will not be allowed to do it anymore.

sad.